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Marcia Abboud's avatar

Gut-wrenching, KiKi. I resonate with many parts of this. A unique perspective. So clever, and heartbreaking.

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Mark Dimor's avatar

So much here that I can relate too. Even more striking is some of the language I will use to help me when I do my Volunteer Crisis Counseling.

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Dr Priyanka Upadhyai's avatar

Honest, vulnerable and beautifully written

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Mark Lefebvre's avatar

Powerful and beautifully written. My need to rock myself as a child was a coping mechanism. I can see that now. Shame feeds depression like oxygen feeds a fire. Thank you for this important piece.

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Jerileewei's avatar

So touching and real. Depression is complicated and personal to everyone who suffers it. Hugs sent your way!

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Jacqueline Dooley's avatar

Big hugs, my friend. This piece is raw and beautifully written.

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Nan Tepper's avatar

I hear you. And totally relate. Thank you for this beautiful rendering of what depression feels like to you. I know it too well. Writing about it really helps. Thank you for this, Kiki. xo

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Abruptly Biff's avatar

Kiki, that was beautiful.

I used to go to deep dark places inside of me. My brain still wants to take me there, but now I am able to recognize it right at the beginning of the spiral - when the void starts to open - and "by opposing, end them". I don't know how or when I learned to do this and wish I could bottle it up and give it to everyone before and after me.

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